I woke up this morning actually looking forward to starting this week. It was the first time in 2-1/2 months now that I woke up without a big cloud of dread hanging over me. I think I'm really starting to break through the fog and face reality. I've been in denial thus far, not willing or able to accept Mike's death. I've been telling myself he's still going to walk through the front door. As reality closes in and I accept that that's just not going to happen, I feel a little more ready to face my new life. I think I'm actually starting to believe I might make it through this.
I'm feeling a lot more calm this week with less appointments scheduled, and I'm looking forward to having more time to work. When I have too much going on, it feels like chaos to me, and I easily get overwhelmed. This week is all about getting ready for Jack's birthday! For the most part, I've really been dreading that, but I'm embracing it now and I'm going to do everything I can to make it his best birthday ever. After all, he's in the double digits now! Oh, and while I'm talking about his birthday...to my Rav friends. OMG YOU GUYS TOTALLY ROCK!!!! Card bombing Jack was an amazing idea, and he just keeps getting cards. I was going to keep them until his actual birthday, but he caught me with them and saw them. The look on his face was priceless, and I wish I'd had a camera. He got a little teary and was just so shocked that all those cards were for HIM. I know they made him feel really special, and it means so much to both of us that you thought of him and took the time to send him a card.
Here's a picture of Mike on Jack's 7th birthday...
I'm feeling a lot more calm this week with less appointments scheduled, and I'm looking forward to having more time to work. When I have too much going on, it feels like chaos to me, and I easily get overwhelmed. This week is all about getting ready for Jack's birthday! For the most part, I've really been dreading that, but I'm embracing it now and I'm going to do everything I can to make it his best birthday ever. After all, he's in the double digits now! Oh, and while I'm talking about his birthday...to my Rav friends. OMG YOU GUYS TOTALLY ROCK!!!! Card bombing Jack was an amazing idea, and he just keeps getting cards. I was going to keep them until his actual birthday, but he caught me with them and saw them. The look on his face was priceless, and I wish I'd had a camera. He got a little teary and was just so shocked that all those cards were for HIM. I know they made him feel really special, and it means so much to both of us that you thought of him and took the time to send him a card.
Here's a picture of Mike on Jack's 7th birthday...